what should cameron be for halloween?

Man, a lot has happened since my last post. Tasha came down to visit and we went to Toronto to pick up Jereme. For the second time, my smart self screwed up the greyhound address so we were driving/walking around downtown toronto about 500 lots from where we needed to be. (we were at 160, and needed to be at 610) But we did get to the right place eventually, and Jereme made it here safe and sound. It's so amazing finally having himm here after being apart for so long. And I'm glad he made it before our son was born. Yes, we have a son now. The most amazing, perfect little person ever.
( Boring Pregnancy/labour stuff )
Cameron James was born at 12:29am on April 30th, 2009, weighing 8lbs 8.1oz.



Life since then has been pretty hectic. I had to stay at the hospital for 3 days, then we got to bring CJ home.




He's an amazingly good baby. He's not fussy, the only time he cries is when he's hungry or uncomfortable (he hates body temp baths, likes them on the warm side, and detests getting his diaper changed.) He usually sleeps between 3-5 hrs at night. He loves mommy snuggles, or being held by anyone at all, but he doesn't mind being alone in his bassinet either. I couldn't have asked for a better son, and had no idea I could love someone so much.

I'm sad. :( Me and my stupid pregnancy memory. I thought jereme was getting to thunderbay at 9, till 10:15... but he got there at 7:45, and left at 9... so while i was at the store from 8-8:45 I missed his calls, and of course, i didnt bring my cell phone with me. Stupid. :( But, only like 21 hrs till he's finally here! I'm so excited. He finally gets to see his baby. (still in my tummy, but still) and he gets to feel kicks, and be here when the baby is born. I've missed him so much, but i don't have to miss him anymore because he'll be here!

On another note, i think i strained/pulled a muscle at my baby shower. From bending over and picking up presents. now whenever i cough, or laugh or more, its owwie. But that'll be better soon. The babys moving around alot, so hours hes high, and others it feels like hes about to fall out. Not much longer till he gets here though. I'm 37.5 weeks now. My next appointment is thursday with the doctor that will be delivering Cameron. He seems nice, but i dont wanna go to this appointment. Its one where the not so fun stuff happens lol. But jereme will be here for it for the first time, so hopefully that will make it all better. I cant wait till 6pm tomorrow!!!!!!!!!!!!

JEREME WILL BE HERE TUESDAY!!!

This is getting ridiculous. So, in order to find out why the hell jereme cant cross the border, he has to get a lawyer... and its going to cost $1700 approx to see why the canadian government is seeing something that doesn't exist any where else. It's impossible to find a way to contact anyone to see what happened, but tomorrow i'm going to try again. So I'll be spending all day packing and talking to the government and police and whatnot. Glad pregnant women are supposed to stay away from stress....

Only 16 hours of listening to stupid people bitch about what they think is an internet problem left. :D :D :D (theres nothing on my screen! Norton says....! I have no sound.... My printer type is really small fix it or i'll make sure they fire you!) And only 5 more days left of the ghetto fabulous T-Town. Man.. I really should pack.
Instead, I'm sitting around, listening to "The Beat" on cogeco...killer good tunes... and knitting a butterfly washcloth because I can actually see myself making progress on it, unlike the baby blanket I started when I found out I was pregnant... With the yarn I got when I found out Kym was pregnant again (Shannon is now 2) I also put laundry in the wash 4 hrs ago.. and haven't switched it to the dryer... honestly I don't feel up to walking down two flights of stairs to find my roommate hasn't emptied the dryer yet. My lovely little munchkin is kicking me and smooshing my lungs at the moment. But he's mommas adorable little angel so it's ok. :P
I've already caught up on all the shows on my DVR, I need to find something else to do to keep me from having to pack. I figure I can get it all done in the two days I'm not working before I move. :S I'm such a procrastinator. I really should mail off my eye appointment paperwork from back in Decemeber so I can get the money back. Stupid benifit paperwork. I've paid way more into my benifits than I ever used. And when CJ is born I'll have to pay even more. But at least then, he'll be getting shots and stuff and actually using them. Ok, I'm done talking about nothing. :D

Fucking. Redic.
so, Jereme gets to the border, with money this time (the reason he was turned away last time) and guess what? This time they won't let him cross due to a failure to comply with a court order... The best part? He never failed to comply with any orders.... AND it doesn't exist in the US border system either. The only people that see this so called failure to comply are the canadian border guards. So, because of them, its more than likely that my babys daddy isnt going to be here to see his son born.

So I should be cleaning and packing since my room is a write-off and I move in about 20 days... But it's hard dude. I mean, it looks a lot better than it did, although its still a mess with garbage, and recycling, and pillows, and dishes, and all sorts of fun stuff. But it's frustrating. I used to just put some tunes on and be able to get the room done in a day, separate garbage and recycling and bag it, and put all the clothes in the laundry, dust, put away sheets and towels, do dishes, vacuum, rearrange furniture, and have my room looking all pretty again.. I've been working on my room for like 3 weeks now. I have no energy. I clean for an hour, and then get all swollen and tired and don't want to do anything else. Plus its hard to reach the floor and pick stuff up.. theres no way i'm going to be able to move furniture around. (BTW, I live in my room which is why it gets so dirty, and i feel bad making the roomies split the cost of my garbage when i bring down a bag thats just mine, even though if i had of brought it down the first day it was garbage it would have been the community garbage anyways... I'm weird) I should have done a major cleaning when I found out I was pregnant, and just been tiding since then.. but i'm such a horrible procrastinator. Or maybe I'm a really good one. Either way, This is going to take forever, and I have to be done by Wednesday. Mom's coming up and wants to help me pack, but I don't like people seeing my room when its messy. If its all clean, I don't care, but if its messy, I'm the only one allowed in..... And I have to get Tasha to babysit my smoking stuff for me, because I'm pretty sure I don't want mom seeing my bongs and pipes. I haven't smoked since I found out I was pregnant though, and probably won't ever be able to afford to again after baby is born... but they're so pretty, I can't throw them out, and they're new too.. I bought them the week I must have gotten pregnant and they were only used a few times. I've got all the baby stuff gathered together though. Mom's going to take all the clothes and blankets and stuff and wash them for me so I don't have to pay for laundry mat or spend three weeks washing and drying them with the machines we have. I still need to figure out what I'm doing with my stuff when I move, since Aunt Jo's house already has everything, including a bed. Oh the joys of moving... even more fun while pregnant!
Its awesome being able to feel baby kick all the time though. And Jereme should be here soon which will make everything a lot easier. I'm so excited for him to finally get here. It makes me sad that he's missed the first what... 33 weeks now? of my pregnancy. As long as he's here for the actual labour part it will be ok though. He should be here by the first or second. Just wish I knew the actual date so I could make concrete plans about whats going on. I'm not the type of person that can just roll with it lol. I need to know whats happening, and when. Motherhood is going to be fun. :P

I don't understand how people can be pregnant like, 8 times.. or 3.. or 2.. My throat is absolutely killing me, for a week now... I haven't had a voice for 5 days now, which is bloody inconvenient when my job is to talk all day. And time off work due to not being able to do my job (coz of course theres no back up jobs to do, you go, and you talk, or you don't get paid) is going to affect my mat leave pay. So at the time when I should be working the absolute most I can, I'm working less than I ever have. *le sigh* So far the only good part of pregnancy is when Cameron kicks. And then when he comes out. The rest is a bunch of pain, and trouble. Jereme's so having the next one.
Other than that, I'm in my pjs and loving it. I like days when i dont have to wear real pants. They're so overrated. I'm just sitting around sucking on hard candies and eating popsicles, and catching up on american idol, because i am super cool like that. Then Americas Next top model.. then being erica, and lie to me, and csi:ny, and csi:miami... All of which are kick ass shows. Tonight is bones, and kath and kim, and csi... which sadly, hasnt been that great of a show since grissom left. apparently hes what made it the best csi. The new guy is cool and all.. but it also annoys me how hes a newb, and everything centers around him like it used to around grissom. I thought catherine was the new boss? I've seen her like twice since gil left. But whatever. Pretty soon the whole original cast is gonna be gone.. Sarah, and warrick, and grissom.. Sadness. As long as Greg and nick stay. They're my eye candy.

So, One countdown is on... I don't have the actual number tho, but Jereme will be here by April 6th. I can't wait. It sucks that he's missed out on most of our pregnancy, but at least he'll still get to be here for some of it, and he'll be here for the baby being born, and everything after. I feel bad that he's missed out on the first 8 months, but theres nothing that could've been done about it. I'm all nervous about the birth and everything after, but trying not to stress about it, it will happen how it happens.
Went out with Tasha today, and got my taxes done for the last 2 years. So, hopefully I'll be getting some money back from that.. who really knows with the government. I'm pretty sure they hate me, and are out to torture me. Also blew almost $500 on two pairs of new glasses, but I CAN SEE!!! and they're not falling off my face any more, which is good. Would be kinda hard to bath a baby if i keep going blind when my glasses fall into the water. :P They had a good run tho, almost 5 years, i think.
Cameron will be here in less than 2 months. And I've gotta move in just over a month.. I really should start cleaning. I'll leave the packing for Jereme to do while he gets here. :P

im sick of being alone.

Yay.Life is a little less stressed. Baby and mommy are doing well, and I've finally decided on a place to live. We're going to be staying with my aunt in Oakville. This way, I don't have to deal with an apartment that I cant afford, or with one set of parentals whining because I'm living with the other one. Really, they were. You'd think that after 20 years apart they could attempt to get along. But hey,what do i know? lol. Cameron is kicking up a storm, which i love coz it feels cool, and i know he's alright. Everything would be absolutely perfect if only Jereme would get here. lol. I could even deal with all the random owwies I'm getting (like not being able to move my shoulder, or wrist, on either arm... i love pregnancy swelling.) Anyways, off to another day at my wonderful place of employment. (LIES ALL LIES ITS NOT WONDERFUL AT ALL!!!!)

so i took my phone back and got my money back, and tasha and i roadtripped to get a new one in toronto since that was the closest place that had rumours. so i now have a pretty green virgin rumour, and so far, no issues. Woo hoo.

so its been awhile since i last posted, but yes, they're still taking my money. Man I love this company. I called a couple of times that i didnt post due to pc issues. I called friday, because, once again, i was in the negative, and i was going away for the weekend and needed my cell phone. They credited the $20 that mysteriously disappeared, and when they told me i had to call back monday to speak with the tech support department, I made them put another credit on my phone for the inconvience. so my balance was at 45 and change when i left. Its monday, and i'm down to 22 something. No texts, no calls, no nothing. Tech support is now on the line with billing, because as they told me before, its a billing issue. Billing puts it on tech support. So this is obviously never going to be fixed. Depending on what they say today i'm telling them to cancel my acct, and go fuck themselves and taking my phone back. Because this shit is bananas. B-A N-A N-A-S, and not in the good way. Still on hold... Been like 10 minutes so far. And he said it would be a quick second.

On the phone again with solo.. My account is at a positive balance once again.. lets see how long it lasts. Judging by previous experience it will be negative again by the end of the call. On the phone so far for 10 minutes... and I've spoken with two reps so far. The first one gave me credit, and transferred me to another tier of tech support. now shes consulting with her supervisor because the ticket is already escalated beyond her. So I get to wait on hold for forever. Woo Hoo. Apparently the ticket that would be resolved within 24-48 hrs is still open... and i filed it on Thursday. From the 11th to the 17th is more than 48 hrs. Now shes saying that I needed to be using my phone so they could have an example of the error that they think they've repaired. However, they keep putting me into the negative balance... how can i use my phone when they take my credit before i have a chance to use it... which i explained to the last rep... cant USE my phone if they keep putting me in negative. now this 3rd guy is arguing about crediting my account. "Where have you gotten this information from?" "your tech reps over the last two weeks" and now im on hold again. Man, this company has amazing service. Like, fantastic. Everyone should sign up with them now.... And im lying, in cast you didnt get that. I would rather be shot in the head than deal with this. We're at 20minutes now.
So they've finally credited back the balance that disappeared, and my phone is back up to a regular amount. The guy was like, are the issues resolved now? I was like, i have no idea, now that im finally able to use my phone again i guess we'll see. and if not, then i'll be calling back. Again.
So, so ends the solo adventure for now. We shall see what the future brings.

This weekend is mom family for the weekend, and BABY PICTURE ON TUESDAY! I will post so all you anxious people can see my uterus. Coz who doesnt want their uterus posted on the interwebs. :P And I get to find out if its Cameron or Kiera if the lil one is cooperating.

When vicky gets home maybe i'll be able to make cookies without burning them... An oven that only works at 500 degrees is not helpful while attempting to bake. but vicky seems to have it fuigured out. My brownies turned out ok, cookies... not so much.


*update* a couple hours have gone by... i started out with $25.86... recieved one text message that costs 15cents, and am now down to $20.16. Man, their math sucks ass.

So, Its been the 48hrs I was told to wait, and surprise, surprise, no-one has contacted me like i was assured they would. I called after work, and waited for 2 hours on hold... my phone died before anyone picked up.. and I'm pretty sure they all just logged out at 6pm, and abandoned all the calls rather than clearing out their queue since they close at 6 and i was still on hold at six thirty. So i sent them another email, and we shall see what happens. Probably nothing. If so I will be taking the phone to a solo shop, I dont care if i bought it at walmart, and get my money back. Its been over a week. Thats more than enough time to fix the shit they've got all fucked up.


In happy news, 8 more sleeps till i get to see my baby again. :) And maybe find out if its a boy or girl. And only 5 more sleeps till I get to see my tipperneenee again! man, Its been years.. Like, 3 or 4. crazyness. Now I just need some Joy in my life, and it'll be like old times... So? Whadda ya say joy? You should totally roadtrip it to london for saturday. :P

So, a word of warning, never get a solo mobile phone. In the week that i've had it, $22.50 of credit has mysteriously gone missing. I called tech support, which of course, costs $3, which put my balance into the negative. They put in a ticket, which takes 72 hours to process, in the mean time i couldnt use my phone, because im not going to put more money on it for them to randomly take. Today was the 3rd day, and the credit hadnt been returned, and no word on what caused it. So i called back. Apparently the ticket was never looked at. And now I'm at one hour on the phone with support again... on my second rep... and she just spent 20 minutes arguing with me that i had an option selected on msn, which i didnt. So shes now logged into my msn account, and says yes, i see that you dont have that turned on. so now shes back to her next level of support. (she was the next level to the first guy) And I'm on hold again. Still missing $22.50 cents... still negative funds due to their tech support fee, maybe even more negative now since i'm speaking with another person. And apparently I cant even move my phone to another company except for Bell, and fuck that. Bell sucks. Bell owns solo. The reason I canceled bell for my home service was because of the hidden charges. Unfortunately, I didnt realize solo was bell till after i activated it. Oh, now shes escalating it again, because apparently noone can figure out exactly why they're taking my money. Stay tuned for the amazing conclusion. Maybe it will be repaired in a few more weeks.

*edit* Her escalation will take another 24-48hrs, after already waiting 3 days, and spending almost 2 hours on the phone. GO SOLO!

*edit 2* and after them waiving the support fee, they charged it again, went from 30someodd cents credit to -$2.60somthing cents. Told the lady I wouldnt be able to use my phone for another 2 days. But she had to argue. Dont people know im always right?

I would really like some nachos. And I have no nachos. It is a sad sad day. Crackers and melted cheese just is not the same.

Had my first appointment today. Everything is going well. I now have pills to help with the all-day-sickness, so woohoo! Got a few vials of blood taken, annnnnnnd...


Ultrasound. :P
Doesn't quite look like a baby yet, but its getting there. And i got to hear the heartbeat!!

i'm gonna have a baby :-o